A Happy Post

I wrote 3 different posts about why I was upset today so now I am going to even it out with this one happy post.

I am happy because I am here. I won’t go too much into it but every year I make it to my birthday I do genuinely feel like its an accomplishment. Every day feels like a battle with my mind and any day I wake up to see the next is a win.

I am happy because I have found love. A love I had no idea existed. I thought I was going to go my whole life constantly being disappointed. I had very low expectations for love. Then once again, I randomly get a text to meet someone who changed my life. Not at a time I was looking to be loved, but the best time to experience it.

I am happy because I make enough money to make ends meet. I am not rich by any means. I have a small savings and a lot of debt I need to take care of. Despite that, I pay my rent, car payment, and my other bills every month when they are due. I know this doesn’t seem like something someone should be happy about, but it’s better than the alternative.

I am happy because I have a roof over my head. I feel very fortunate to have the people in my life that I do because if I didn’t I would still be in the same toxic living situation. I would’ve had to live out the entirety of my lease, and it wouldn’t have been beneficial for me at all.

I am happy because I’ve been able to go camping multiple times within the past two months and it is one of my favorite things to do. I get a little nervous at first but I enjoy being out in nature and exploring.

I am happy because I have a side business that does bring in a good amount of money to help with my bills. Not very many people strive to make good money from photography. Even more so, they don’t aim to truly run it as a business. Photography is my creative outlet and I plan to one day not have to shoot for money. However, I am glad that to expedite my goals, I can count on photography to bring in extra money.

I am happy because my mouth doesn’t hurt anymore. After months of having tooth pain and a massive headache, I don’t have either anymore. I can eat what I want for the most part and I’ll be okay.

I do actually have a lot to be happy about. I really want to focus on the parts of my life that make me happy rather than the parts that make me sad and I want to change.